Chapter 6.3

*C/W Explicit Sex*

 

But, could Endo really have Kodai as a sex partner?

He would be seriously hurt if Endo decided to call it off halfway.

And, if they made it all the way, could they even continue as usual after?

As he imagined it, he shook his head in denial. If Endo slept with him, Kodai wouldn’t be able to face him as if everything was normal. He would collapse at the sight of him and never be able to work again.

“Oi, stop with that pose.”

Endo looked down at him with a suspicious gaze, causing Kodai to return to his senses. Kodai crossed his arms, covering his chest.

“What are you, a girl?”

“… How about we stop here?”

“Why are you saying this just now?”

“I need to prepare mentally.”

“What kind of preparation do you need?” he replied with a sour expression. Straddling Kodai, he roughly took off his own sweater and threw it aside. As Kodai watched from below, his heart was beating so fast, he felt like he was going to have a nosebleed.

“Wait, wait, stop a second!”

“What is it?”

“It’s scary…”

“It’s not scary. I’ll do my best not to make this a bloody disaster.”

“‘You’ll try’, so it’s not an absolute?! Anyway, if our relationship progressed so suddenly, there’s no way we could ever return to being friends, so it’s scary!”

Endo snorted. “When have we ever been friends anyway?”

It was shocking how casually he said those words. 

It was true that, in their 8 years of knowing each other, they never really were friends. They hadn’t even gone out together and were simply colleagues. Right now, they were just shop owner and employee.

In other words, if their relationship progressed and it became awkward, let alone being friends, they wouldn’t even be able to work together.

“You can’t call the object of your desires a friend, can you?” Endo whispered into Kodai’s ear as his thoughts ran rampant in his head.

“…. ‘Object. Of. Your. Desires’….” Kodai turned the phrase over in his mouth several times and became even more red.

Endo had already told him he liked him and, yes, this sort of situation was a given but when Kodai thought about how Endo had always seen him like that, he felt stuck between happiness and embarrassment.

“If that’s how it is, shouldn’t you just make a friends-with-benefits relationship?” He ran his mouth saying something meaningless.

Endo said with a dumbfounded expression, “If it was just for pleasure, then I’d find a more desirable partner.”

“Oi. That’s rude to me,” he jabbed back. He felt so happy, he could die.

They weren’t friends, he wasn’t looking for a one-night stand; rather, he truly had a proper attraction to Kodai…

“…. En-chan, have you finally entered your dere¹ I mentioned it earlier but Dere = caring era?”

Endo raised his eyebrow puzzledly. “I told you, I’m always dere.”

“Ah…” So he was serious when he said that,

Kodai thought back on the time he spent with Endo. On the surface, he had been treated quite harshly most of the time but, now that he thought about it, Endo had helped him when he quarrelled with Anzai and he even took on Kodai’s clients when he mourned his father.

Kodai was slowly realising that each of the gestures was out of affection. That realisation made his heart race.

 “What are you agonising about? Anyway, take off your pants.”

“No, no, no, I can’t.”

Kodai held the front of his bottoms with both hands.

“I’ve been living in my own world of unrequited love my whole life. I couldn’t imagine a world where you’d like me back. You’ll have to give me 10 years to get used to it.”

“If you waited 10 years, you’d be too old to get erect.”

“Stop being so direct! And apologise to middle-aged people!”

“All this complaining is annoying. Hurry up and strip so you can become mine.”

Endo took off Kodai’s belt while riding his thigh and holding Kodai down.

“Wait, wait, wait!”

Although Endo was larger in physique, Kodai was also a man of nearly 180 centimetres. He would have been able to resist if he tried. However, his brain felt like it had been corroded so he cowered idly as his jeans were pulled beneath his waist.

With his upper body naked and her underwear exposed, surrounded by the man liked, he became embarrassed and teary-eyed.

He had never felt so embarrassed to have someone see his body in his life.

However, being dressed like this in front of Endo was indescribably embarrassing. After all, they weren’t even friends. They had never been to a hot spring or pool together, and their industry didn’t require them to change outfits so they didn’t have any chance to see each other’s skin.

“Hey. What are you so annoying about?”

“Because, if I had known that this would happen, I would have reduced my carbohydrate intake and muscle training for about a month to get my body back on track. And take care of my clothes, wash them thoroughly before we meet, and put on new pants.”

“Are you a girl?”

“Shut up! Do you understand how long I’ve liked you for?”

“You’re saying we have a long history, right? Do you understand how long I’ve been holding myself back from touching you?”

“Eh…………”

As Kodai’s mind went blank, Endo took off his shirt.

“Huh?”

Kodai’s view became pink. His eyes widened at his naked body. He had thought the difference in body size was just a difference in weight equal to height, but that turned out to be a far cry.

Endo’s pectoral and abdominal muscles are so well shaped that it was hard to believe that he was just a hairdresser. 

“What’s with that unfair body!”

The reason why he couldn’t move was not because he was feeling coquettish but because of Endo’s muscles!

“Wait, wait! Why is it only you getting such perfect results?! I’m going to work out too, so wait a minute.”

“Why do you keep saying things that don’t make sense?” Endo pushed him back down firmly as he tried to stand up.

“I can’t, I can’t, my heart will break.”

“I can’t do this anymore either. I can’t hold back even for a second.”

Kodai gasped as the centre of his body was pressed tightly against Endo’s.

Kodai’s thing was pressed by another so hard it felt like it was going to bend. Kodai became even more teary-eyed as he physically felt Endo’s lust for him.

“…Why are you crying?”

“……I’d never thought a day like this would come.”

“What kind of day?”

“En-chan is…with me…” 

“The day you go crazy?”

Kodai’s eyes flooded with tears. “…that phrasing….”

Unexpectedly, Endo burst into laughter.

“En-chan, if you hid your mouth and personality, you could choose any girl in this world as you like, so why would you really choose me?”

“You’re so persistent. How long will you continue asking this question?” 

“I mean, are you even gay?”

“No, this is my first time with a man.” So, he’s had experience with women. Of course, he has. “And you?”

“Huh?”

“Have you ever had sex with a man?”

“…. No.”

“What about with women?”

“Eh, ah……no…….” 

Even though he had pretended to be an expert, his low experience points were inadvertently exposed.

“Ha,” Endo laughed again. Kodai felt annoyed, feeling like he was being made fun of.

“What? Sorry, I’m still a virgin.”

“I’m not saying it’s anything bad. Then, your first and last time are all mine.” He was probably saying these words without any thought, but Kodai felt like he was about to die.

Realising that it was no longer possible to hide his body, Koudai covered his face with both hands. His face was so hot, it could have caught fire.

“Don’t be so fidgety and embarrassed,” Endo said angrily.

 “Sorry, it’s creepy, isn’t it.”

“It’s the opposite, idiot.” 

“…Eh? W-wait…”

Endo’s hand suddenly slipped into Kodai’s underwear.

“It’s because you become even more arousing” 

“……………………Ya-!”

Kodai involuntarily twisted in agony, as if he had received an electric shock. He turned over to escape Endo’s hand. As Kodai lay on his stomach and tried to crawl out, Endo spooned him from behind.

He pressed his lips to the nape of his neck and grasped Kodai’s thing with his hands from behind.

“Ya……………”

“Stop that. I’m getting in the mood to do this.”

“Not that… En-chan……”

“Hmm?”

“If En-chan did something like this to me… I…-“

“What is it?”

“…will go crazy…”

“And if you do?”

Feeling Endo’s erection from behind and being groped in the front, Kodai could put up no resistance.

“Wait, wait, wait!”

“I’m not a dog. There’s no way I could wait even if you ask.” The more he begged, the more aroused he got, and he couldn’t help but wet Endo’s hands.

 

“A-… ah..” It was the first time in his life that he had been touched by someone else’s hands—the person he had always had feelings for at that.

Such a climax was beyond his imagination.

“Ya…” 

His hips trembled as if he was having a spasm, and even though he didn’t mean to, he violently smeared his stuff into Endo’s hand.

“That’s erotic…” Endo whispers with a sigh. “……Who’s to blame? Me? Then show me something even more erotic.”

“Ah…” His underwear was pulled off his legs and he was turned back onto his back. Just as he was going to calm down after being aroused, the flames spread, so he had no choice but to surrender and let the flames burn out. The air in the room lacking warmth made his skin feel irritated, and when Endo towered over him, he could feel his body temperature.

Relieved, he begged for his lips. Despite always saying mean things, Endo made Kodai drunk with a sweet kiss that felt like a lie.

 

The stimulation of their tongues and lips smoothly rubbing against each other evoked even more sensuality.

Endo’s deft fingertips, which delicately work on customers’ hair, explored every part of Kodai’s body and turned on every switch.

Kodai dug his nails into Endo’s wide back, feeling so much that he almost cried. A happiness he never thought would be his.

Even though he held Endo in his arms like this, he still couldn’t believe it. It might be a dream, or it might just be a one-night misunderstanding.

If that’s the case, he wrapped his arms tightly around Endo’s body, even more so that he wouldn’t forget. It was only when Endo’s fingers probed from behind that Kodai came to his senses from his dream.

“Oh, are you serious?”

“What?” Endo asked back, pressing his teeth into his earlobe.

“C- can you do something like that, En-chan?”

“Are you making fun of me?” 

“Not that but… won’t you get turned off?”

“Huh?”

He looked down at him with a shocked look on his face.

“Why don’t you experience it for yourself to see if it makes me feel turned off?”

“Eh… Ah…”

With his fingers wet with Kodai, Endo begins to attack from behind.

Shaken and ashamed, Kodai continued to let out hoarse sounds from his clenched mouth.

He was occasionally told that he needed to supply more because they didn’t have enough moisture, and when Endo stimulated his climax even more and made him cum, he was half in tears. Kodai, who was at first afraid, was gradually dragged into a sensual swamp that was different from when he was touched in the front, making his hips move with a frustratingly slow and unknowingly groaning sensation.

“…Are you okay?”

He was already frustrated when Endo asked him in a hoarse voice as if to confirm his readiness to accept the situation.

Impatiently wanting more, Kodai pulled Endo’s body closer to him.

However, Endo quickly removed Kodai’s arm and forced him to lie face down under him again.

“I’d prefer to look at your face,” he protested, pleading with him, but he easily gave up.

“This is fine, look down.”

“What’s the matter? Is it because looking at my face would turn you off?”

“This is your first time, right? With men’s stiff muscles, if you tried to do it from the front, your muscles will ache.”

“What…for me?”

The fact that during sex, where each other’s instincts are exposed, Endo showed him consideration made his chest twist tightly and sweetly. He felt it in his heart, and as soon as he laid him down on his stomach and they continued, he became erect again.

Endo, who was touching Kodai’s stuff from behind, also noticed this and stopped moving. “…Why are you cumming at this timing?”

“Well…I mean, when I thought of En-chan taking care of me…I felt a sudden jerk.”

“Are you an idiot?”

“I mean, I can’t believe it. That En-chan loves me like this.”

“Shut up for a second.”

Endo seemed embarrassed and pushed himself into him to cover Kodai’s words. “Ngh…”

The texture and size were completely different from his fingers, and he couldn’t help but feel

strength in his body. “Oh…it’s going to tear…”

“Three fingers went in, so it’s okay.”

“I can’t… En-chan’s too big…”

“…Don’t provoke me.”

“I really can’t…You’re so big…”

“Stupid-!” After saying this in an angry tone, Endo took a deep breath behind his back. Then, bending down, he put his weight on Kodai’s back.

Endo’s breath was against his ear, and Kodai’s whole body had become an erogenous zone, and he trembled.

Endo put his lips on his earlobe and whispered, “Koudai.”

When his name was called, his whole body went numb.

“I’m annoyed, but I have to say it.” 

“What…?”

“I need you more than you think.”

“…..!!”

Words that Kodai never expected to hear from Endo’s mouth were poured into his ears, and his whole body’s strength suddenly disappeared.

At that moment, Endo pushed his way inside.

“Aaah………!”

“…Nng-… See, I could enter, couldn’t I?”

“…This is unfair…”

He was stretched out to the point of pain, but after a while, he adapted to Endo’s shape.

Then, he began to pick up sensations that weren’t pain.

Endo caressed Kodai’s body here and there until he got used to it, and eventually found the right rhythm.

“A-…ah…. ah…”

His body twisted in a sensation he had never experienced before. He became one with Endo and the two experienced the same pleasure.

When he thought about it, he felt a climax that made him go crazy.

“Ya…No, I can’t……….”

“Does it hurt?”

“N- no…. Ah… I might die….”

“You won’t die.”

“I’m going to die… I’m telling you…”

“Telling me what?”

“I’m so happy like this with En-chan…I’m definitely going to die…”

“You seriously love me, don’t you?”

“……………I do…………”

“Chasing me this far”

“…Because I love you…”

No longer knowing what he was saying, Kodai repeated “I love you, I love you” like a proverb.

If his rationality had prevailed, he would never have said something like this in such a sweet voice. It was shocking how Endo had pushed him to such a point. 

However, now that they are connected, Endo can tell that he doesn’t feel bad.

“…If you tighten that much, it’s gonna break.”

“No… En-chan is getting bigger, isn’t it?”

They are so close together that there are no gaps, and their cells become zones of sensuality, each of Endo’s movements causing pleasure to run through him like electricity.

“Ah..”

“…I can’t handle it when you make those noises-.” Endo’s voice, which usually lacks intonation, was unusually raspy.

“Fu…Ah, ah…”

Even though he was careful as much as he could, Kodai’s body trembled as Endo’s hips slammed against him, making him unable to hold back.

He was pushed to a higher point than he had ever been before.

At the same time, he realised that Endo’s stuff had exploded inside.

“Ahh………………”

While feeling overwhelmed by the orgasm, Koudai’s consciousness was momentarily lost in a sense of euphoria.

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T/N

I’m so so so sorry everyone for the unexplained hiatus. after those first two weeks, life happened and then I got covid so I had to pause translating for a bit. but I’m back now 🙂 hopefully, this chapter was worth the wait 😉

as for the future, I will try my absolute best for weekly updates but please be understanding <3

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  I mentioned it earlier but Dere = caring