Translator: hoenimochi, Rin Editor: Su Xinghe
Lu Yong held his breath. He was so surprised and confused that he almost fell off the bed.
In order for Lu Yong to not get too close to Shen Wenqiu, so it wouldn’t seem as if he had ill intentions and also due to him being too tall, he could only lie on the edge of the bed, teetering on the edge with no way out.
He didn’t even think that Shen Wenqiu would say such words. Although he knew that nine times out of ten it wouldn’t be real as he was drunk, he still couldn’t help but get excited.
What’s more, Lu Yong was still an old virgin.
Lu Yong finally managed to hold his breath and asked in a low voice, “Do you know what you’re talking about? Xiao Baa, don’t joke around.”
Shen Wenqiu nodded, rubbed his hair against the pillow, made a rustling noise and said obediently, “En, I know. I’m not kidding.”
His breath was full of alcohol, not at all convincing.
Lu Yong’s mouth suddenly became dry, but he stayed there and didn’t dare to move.
How could he not want to get close to Shen Wenqiu? He spent his entire adolescence imagining Shen Wenqiu and he didn’t know if it was because he was too repressed at the time that later, after they parted, he became pure-hearted and uninterested in others, be it male or female.
But since he brought Shen Wenqiu back, he felt that he had returned to becoming vulgar again, and he couldn’t remember how many times he had been so ready to do something bad.
Shen Wenqiu was indeed not as clear and beautiful as he was when he was young but he still thought he was very cute. Everything about him was cute, the little mole on the back of the waist was cute, the sleeping posture of curling up was cute, the sad dropping corner of his mouth was cute and the faint eyebrows and eyes that were always listless and cold were also very cute.
The cuter he felt, the more he dared not touch it.
The current Shen Wenqiu was thin and slender but Lu Yong’s hands were so rough and strong. Just imagining it made him afraid that he would break Shen Wenqiu.
Lu Yong said in a flustered and muffled voice, “…don’t joke with me all the time, this kind of joke can’t be made simply.”
Shen Wenqiu chased after him and said, “I’m really not joking.”
Just as Lu Yong was about to speak, Shen Wenqiu said suddenly, “Last time we came to Y town and lived together, didn’t you sneak up on me and touch me in the middle of the night? You were even trying to kiss me. I remember it all.”
Lu Yong was caught off guard as the despicable past he had done was revealed and his cheeks instantly became hot like a criminal who was caught on the spot. Without having to ask, he took the initiative to bow down and admit his mistake.
It was so cold during the winter vacation that year. They stayed in a worn out hotel, the air conditioner was broken and the quilt was so thin and hard that it was not warm at all when covered on them.
Shen Wenqiu said that he wanted to sleep together as it was easier to keep themselves warm by sleeping together.
Naturally, there would be some physical touches, intentional or unintentional.
When he was sixteen years old, he was young and vigorous, and he couldn’t control some of his body’s involuntary reactions. He was cold and hot. He didn’t sleep all night and closed his eyes and recited the Heart Sutra.
Lu Yong was very frustrated and it was probably because of this that Shen Wenqiu regarded him as a pervert. After he was exposed and confessed, he was immediately frightened and ran away.
Lu Yong said, “I didn’t do it on purpose at that time, I just bumped into it accidentally. I didn’t mean to molest you…”
‘I know…’ Shen Wenqiu thought to himself, he could even recall the feeling of Lu Yong’s hand touching him at that time.
It was not obscene at all.
But it still made him feel extraordinarily embarrassed.
Shen Wenqiu was made more irritable and anxious by his hesitant attitude. One would say that he was such a decisive and straightforward big man that he even dared to bring dozens of people to wreck the place. He just asked him if he wanted to have sex yet he was acting so hesitant.
They’d already been adults for ten years!
Shen Wenqiu was so annoyed that he vented it all out simply because of the alcohol. He had been holding on for so long and just directly plunged himself into Lu Yong’s arm, sticking up to him.
Lu Yong was so frightened that he arched his back and hugged the little drunkard. He couldn’t retreat. If he were to retreat, the two would fall off the bed together. He repeatedly said, “Stop squeezing, we’re going to fall together.”
He had to grab Shen Wenqiu but Lu Yong didn’t know where to put his hands.
Shen Wenqiu was like a ball of fire, simply spurting in his heart.
Lu Yong understood clearly that he couldn’t do it and it wasn’t the right thing to do it. He felt that Shen Wenqiu was just drunk and just too lonely, doing it just out of guilt and because he hadn’t had a sex life for a long time. Thus, he absurdly brought up this kind of thing.
If he did it, he would be taking advantage of someone’s misfortunes and he would not be a gentleman at all.
But this was the person he placed at the top of his heart.
Shen Wenqiu was his dawn and also his evil desire.
——His only evil desire.
So in this chaotic dilemma, when Shen Wenqiu’s trembling hand grabbed his clothes and kissed him, it was just a light kiss that allowed the deepest evil thoughts that have been suppressed in his heart to rekindle.
Shen Wenqiu kissed him clumsily in the dark as if he couldn’t wait to sacrifice himself. He desperately pulled Lu Yong’s body but didn’t get an immediate response. He felt so sad again and his tears kept gushing out. He went closer with his cheeks dampened.
Lu Yong was ashamed, angry and distressed. He restrained his anger. His fierce anger flowed out like a sharp cone breaking through a bag. He said in a low voice, “Shen Wenqiu!”
Shen Wenqiu stopped sluggishly and cried even more but he held his breath and didn’t want to make a sound. He felt that his heart was hollowed out but he was still reluctant to let go of Lu Yong as ke kept sniffing.
Lu Yong’s cold metal prosthetic limbs silently grabbed his hands and clasped them.
Shen Wenqiu thought, ‘he would be pushed away next, right?’. As he was being depressed, Lu Yong scolded in anger and helplessness, “Fuck.”
The breath sprayed on Shen Wenqiu’s face.
Shen Wenqiu was so ashamed that he was burning up.
Then, Lu Yong leaned over and covered him.
Shen Wenqiu felt as if he was pressed to the ground by a fierce beast who was biting his throat and he was courting death himself.
Urgency. Confusion. Rage.
The matter would get out of hand once it started.
They both thought each other had experience, so they didn’t see through each other’s clumsiness.
Lu Yong asked him if it hurt, and he lied and said it didn’t hurt.
He was very satisfied, feeling that his soul could finally be relieved, being hugged tightly and the blank void was filled bit by bit with Lu Yong’s kisses and hugs.
‘That’s great’ Shen Wenqiu thought that he liked this place.
This was the place where he fell in love with Lu Yong.
More than 20 years ago, in the early 1990s, some people started to operate the electronic waste recycling industry in Y town and it gradually expanded. At that time, there were dozens of hundreds of large and small companies or workshops created in China without management constraints.
There were few formal ones.
Winter vacation that year.
Lu Yong took him to the side of the road and said, “This place has been called the world’s endpoint for e-waste.”
Shen Wenqiu said, “It sounds impressive.”
“I think so too.” Lu Yong nodded. He always believed that their nation had the most hard-working people in the world and they were not afraid of getting dirty or tired.
Shen Wenqiu asked curiously, “But how are we going to investigate? We are still students… Say that we are the school newspaper club that comes for an interview? That way people wouldn’t tell us in detail, would they?”
Only then did Lu Yong stop, look at him and say, “I have an idea on this matter. You can either play around or wait for me at the hotel.”
Shen Wenqiu didn’t understand, “Huh? What do you mean?”
He didn’t know what was going on but Lu Yong found the local recruitment market with ease and asked if there were any factories recruiting people, “I’m sixteen years old and I can work part-time.”
The other party looked at his only arm, “Can you really do it?”
Lu Yong changed his slow and prudent manner at school. Even if he negotiated with adults, he was not at all weak. He said calmly, “Then I will only charge half of the other people’s salary, do you think it’s okay? I will only work for the winter holidays to save up for college, thank you.”
Shen Wenqiu stood aside and watched. He really didn’t want to be left behind and just wanted to follow Lu Yong. After thinking about it, he also stood up and said, “Da ge, I-I’m also in this together. I will go to work with my friend.”