Translator: Amber.es | Editor: umamin
The blood in Song Yi’s mind boiled; his sleepiness was completely gone. His face was hot, and his trembling hand patted Gu Xingchuan’s arm which was hooked around his neck. Gu Xingchuan murmured nasally, half asleep, half awake, “I won’t let go. Wanna hug you to sleep.”
Rain continued pouring the whole night. Song Yi was too embarrassed, not able to look at Zhao Hongyan’s expression. Zhao Hongyan hesitated for a few seconds and bearing an ugly face, turned and walked out.
“Let go.” Song Yi shook Gu Xingchuan’s arm forcefully, both angry and anxious. As if he had jumped into the Yellow River, unable to wash his sins away.
Gu Xingchuan half-squinted his eyes and saw the wide open door. He immediately knew what was going on. He pulled his arm back and rubbed his eyes. “Don’t move, I’ll explain to Auntie.”
Song Yi quickly jumped out of bed, tidied up the messy clothes. He took a deep breath, and tried to calm himself down.”I’ll go by myself. We don’t have any relationship at all; I will just tell her the truth.”
Gu Xingchuan sat up. He raised his hand to pinch the bridge of his nose as his eyes gradually became clear. “Auntie will believe we don’t have anything between us?”
Song Yi didn’t know what to do. In that situation just now, anyone who saw could tell they had something on. Let alone mentioning Gu Xingchuan’s diligent run to his house during this period. Just a simple afterthought would have Zhao Hongyan know what relationship they had between them.
Gu Xingchuan stepped out of bed and neatly wore a t-shirt. As if it was a natural thing, he kissed Song Yi’s cheek. “I’ll explain, you stay here obediently.”
Song Yi’s tension dipped. Ever since he was a child, he hadn’t caused any trouble to Zhao Hongyan. For the first time, he caused Zhao Hongyan’s heart to be affected because of this kind of thing and he really didn’t know how to face her. But to let Gu Xingchuan face Zhao Hongyan, he could not be at ease.
Song Yi thought for a while and sighed. “You don’t understand my mother’s temper. I’ll go explain the situation to her.”
Gu Xingchuan frowned and opened his mouth to say something. Song Yi shook his head at him, tired and helpless. For a moment, Gu Xingchuan was speechless, like a car engine running on nothing. His tongue was numb against the back of his teeth, and he couldn’t say a word.
This was a really uncomfortable feeling. He was facing the person he liked but was unable to help at all.
Song Yi vigorously rubbed his cheeks and walked out. Zhao Hongyan sat on the sofa in the living room with her back to Song Yi, staring blankly at the white sky outside the window.
Song Yi gently sat beside her, raised his hand and gently patted Zhao Hongyan’s tight back. Like a slingshot, Zhao Hongyan’s body collapsed. She lowered her head and let out a slight gasp. “How could you… …”
“Mom, I…” Song Yi wanted to explain his relationship with Gu Xingchuan.
Zhao Hongyan shook her head with a look of disappointment, “I raised you till you were this big. How could you do such a thing?”
Song Yi was silent for a few seconds. Zhao Hongyan thought he was an Alpha. At this point, there was no need to hide it. Anyway, Zhao Hongyan would know he was an Omega sooner or later, so it was better to take this opportunity to talk about it.
Song Yi’s lips pressed tightly and threw a bomb. “Mom, I’m actually a recessive omega.”
Zhao Hongyan seemed to have been struck by lightning. Her face was pale, and her stiff body trembled, almost limp on the sofa.
Song Yi couldn’t bear it. But since he was already stating it, he could only make it clear. He took a deep breath, his voice calm. “These things happened three months ago, but you can rest assured that life will still be the same as before. I will take care of you and Xiao Jie.”
Zhao Hongyan gasped, wanting to cry but unable to. “Why didn’t you tell me earlier?”
Song Yi lowered his head, a little embarrassed. It was useless to tell Zhao Hongyan about that kind of thing. It could only make Zhao Hongyan depressed.
Zhao Hongyan whimpered and cried out, “You’ve been like this since you were a child. You keep things in your heart. You don’t talk to anyone. You hide everything by yourself. I really don’t know how you are like this. We are all a family. Why didn’t you tell me when something like this happened?”
Song Yi patted her on the back and watched Zhao Hongyan’s reaction. He breathed a sigh of relief. He drew a few tissues and handed it over, and said softly, “I didn’t want you to worry.”
Zhao Hongyan cried in a low voice, rubbed a paper towel into a ball and wiped her tears, “You never treat me as a mother. Whose family will have a child like you?”
Song Yi comforted her in a low voice, feeling strangely uncomfortable. He didn’t feel that he had done anything wrong. He was merely a man bearing responsibilities. Was he wrong in doing that?
Song Yi had never been good at sharing his pain with others. Even when pain was shared, it could not go away, instead he was only able to rely on himself. Telling others would only increase their psychological burden and it would waste each other’s time.
The bedroom door was pushed open, and Gu Xingchuan strode out, his eyes quietly sweeping over the mother and son.
Hearing the sound, Zhao Hongyan turned her head back, looked at Gu Xingchuan for a while. She sniffed and stood up, turned her head before saying, “I can’t afford to live in your place here. I will pack my things and go back to my home.”
Song Yi stood up and gave a long sigh. “Take care of yourself and don’t worry about it. I’ll see you in a few days.”
Zhao Hongyan went straight into the bedroom. Song Yi helped her pack things in her luggage. Zhao Hongyan’s eyes were red, and she left carrying her suitcase out without looking back.
Song Yi leaned on the sofa, took off his glasses, and raised his hand to massage his temples, feeling exhausted. This exhaustion was not only physical but it was mental one too. He felt as if he had expended all energy, unable to lift anything further.
Gu Xingchuan couldn’t bear to see him like this. His heart felt pricked by needles. He sat next to him, stretched out his hand and hugged Song Yi tightly. “Aren’t you a silly one.”
Song Yi lightly pushed his head away but Gu Xingchuan didn’t move, Song Yi stopped his useless motion, his fingertips wrapped around Gu Xingchuan’s curvy hair, twirling them. He smiled lightly, “Even if I’m silly, I’m not as silly as you.”
“You think you are very smart.” Gu Xingchuan pressed close to him, and could feel the warm texture of Song Yi’s body, the light shampoo scent surrounding him, tempting every cell of his. He inhaled hard, a hoarse grunt saying, “You are the dumbest idiot in the world. You treat your mother so well but she doesn’t place you in her heart.”
Even outsiders could tell. Gu Xingchuan only came to Song Yi’s house twice, and could tell that Zhao Hongyan was really not good towards Song Yi.
Song Yi curled his lips. He rubbed his sore ears, and said a few words to Gu Xingchuan. He felt much better, calmly replying, “My mother’s actually had not an easy life. My dad left early. She alone pulled me and Song Jie along. These years have been quite rough. Of course I should treat her better.”
“Nonsense.” Gu Xingchuan raised his head, squeezed Song Yi’s chin, and peered into Song Yi’s eyes. He said in a serious tone, “Didn’t you save for your tuition and living expenses all by yourself? It’s you who did not have it easy.”
Song Yi was stunned. He patted the back of Gu Xingchuan’s hand lightly, and chuckled lightly. “With my family’s situation, shouldn’t it be right to earn tuition and living expenses by myself? What is easy or not easy?”
Gu Xingchuan’s heart soured. The more Song Yi placed these beneath his notice, the more uncomfortable he was. He pursed his lips. “No one can compare to you. If I didn’t know you well, I would also think it was easy for you to come up to today’s level.”
Song Yi glanced at him and chuckled. “Yong Master Gu, your life is so good. Do you think it’s hard for me? That’s because you haven’t seen other ordinary people. The thousands of people in this world whose lives are much harder than mine. There are many people who can’t get enough to eat. Compared to these people, what I have is more difficult, but I have everything I should have. If I complain about my poor life, then how about those people surviving?”
He understood Gu Xingchuan’s kindness, but he and Gu Xingchuan were from two completely different worlds.
When he was in school, while he was working his scalp off in the summer for tuition fees, Gu Xingchuan was comfortably sunbathing on his own island in Sri Lanka. When he studied laboriously day and night in order to guarantee a spot, Gu Xingchuan had already got both the Ivy League’s and Stanford’s acceptance letters.
When he started working, drinking until his stomach bled with the investor in order to get the resources of the film and television drama, Gu Xingchuan coldly refused to toast the investor and the other party could only smile back stiffly.
Empathy was not a word that could be used to link both of them together.
Though Song Yi thanked Gu Xingchuan for his comfort, Gu Xingchuan would never understand what he had gone through.
Gu Xingchuan looked at the indifferent expression on Song Yi’s face. His heart was bitter and astringent, mixed with complex flavours. He reached out and touched Song Yi’s cool ears, and said forcefully, “I don’t care what others think. I just won’t let you suffer. You follow me, and hence you are my person. I will take care of you and won’t let anyone bully you.”
These words were rather very heartwarming. The anxiety in Song Yi’s heart eased. No one had said this to him before. There were many people who relied on him, but unexpectedly, there was someone who wanted Song Yi to be dependent on him for once.
Song Yi lowered his head and smiled, eyeing at Gu Xingchuan. “You are the one who bullies me the most. No one else bullies me.”
“Only I can bully you.” Gu Xingchuan lightly bit his cheek, his sharp snow-white teeth gently grinded the soft flesh. The bitten Song Yi hissed. Gu Xingchuan let go of his mouth and softly concluded, “If others bully you, I will ruin them.”
Song Yi opened his mouth, wanting to frustrate him, when nausea rolled in his stomach. He hurriedly covered his mouth with his hand, leaving Gu Xingchuan aside and hurried to the bathroom, retching violently while holding onto the toilet seat. As he didn’t eat in the morning, nothing was vomited out, only leaving him with a body full of cold sweat.
Gu Xingchuan followed behind. Through a frosted glass door, he worriedly knocked, and asked, “Song Yi, are you okay?”
Song Yi was weak and sat on the floor. He shook his head vigorously. The acid reflux in his stomach churned like violent waves in the sea. He was very uncomfortable. “Cough cough…I’m fine.”
Gu Xingchuan was silent for a few seconds. Listening to his hoarse voice, he twisted open the bathroom door. He leaned down and put his hand under Song Yi’s knees and carried up. “This is not your first time. You have to see a doctor.”
Song Yi struggled hard, unable to shake the steel-like restraint. It was too strange to be held by Gu Xingchuan like this. Gu Xingchuan lightly pinched the back of his neck. Song Yi didn’t dare to move. He gritted his teeth and exclaimed, “I can walk by myself, you let me down. I will make an appointment for a medical examination now.”
The author has something to say:
The first 20 will give everyone a red envelope!
If there is something in your heart, you must share it with your family and friends. Don’t be like Song Yi.
Only those children who know how to cry can have candy to eat.