Chapter 29 – You are not worthy

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​​Song Yi thought about it on the way home, but he still couldn’t understand it.

To say that Gu Xingchuan liked him, was incredulous. Firstly, Gu Xingchuan had always been in love with Shen Li, otherwise he would not have been so against Song Yi wherever they met and would not have faulted him all these years.

Secondly, how could someone in love act like this?

From his childhood to his adulthood, there were quite a few people of all genders who had pursued Song Yi. They respected him very much. They went all out to chase him, there were even some who wrote love letters to him for years, just waiting for him to show pity on them. In any case, everyone was very kind to him and wouldn’t hesitate to dig out their hearts to dedicate to him.

Yet, he had never seen someone like Gu Xingchuan – someone who bullied him, teased him, and harassed him like a lunatic.

Was this how liking someone was expressed? Song Yi was puzzled.

If he changed his way of thinking, he could have a slight understanding. As an ex-alpha he understood how possessive one could be, as a temporarily marked omega was still equivalent to being in an alpha’s possession.

Because of those natural instincts, Gu Xingchuan was possessive, controlling, and had carnal desires for him. These desires added up to make it look like Gu Xingchuan was in love with him.

After thinking through this, Song Yi still felt uncomfortable. Why? For what reason? He was slept by Gu Xingchuan and now he had to suffer this kind of cock’s arrogance? How could this kind of thing make any sense?

Was it possible that he could only blame himself for being so unlucky? Was there no one out there who could manage Gu Xingchuan?

Song Yi rested at home for a few days before returning to work. He arranged several interviews with studios to compare the other parties’ strength and abilities.

This industry had not developed very well in recent years. In the past few years, the situation was good and it was possible to make a lot of money. However, in recent years, due to policies being tightened, many dramas could not be filmed. Actors in the second and third tiers shot once a year. And people who could not bear this and retreated out of the circle were numerous.

Song Yi was slightly better. He had a good reputation for acting in dramas. In addition, his performance in the crew was impeccable and the directors liked to work with him. These studios were also rushing in because of his reputation in the industry.

Today he had just ended a meeting with the owner of a studio when Song Jie’s phone call came in. She called Song Yi to the hospital in fear. Chi Yuan was beaten into the ICU. That was Song Yi’s scumbag brother-in-law.

Song Yi was taken aback. He hadn’t seen Chi Yuan for so long. He thought he was hiding away from his debts in some corner, but he didn’t think that idiot Chi Yuan, actually went to the hospital.

Song Yi first called Zhao Jiangwei and instructed Zhao Jiangwei to protect the mother and daughter pair before heading to the hospital alone.

Through the transparent glass window, Song Yi saw Chi Yuan on his last breath lying on the hospital bed. His round body was thin and skinny, and his rosy white skin was also tanned, as if he had just returned from working in Africa. This body was insert with many tubes, leaving only two eyes moving about.

The attending physician held his clipboard and said kindly, “The patient was found under the overpass. It seems that he had some encounter with people in the society, and there was a physical conflict. According to the preliminary diagnosis, the patient suffered multiple soft tissue injuries and minor fractures.”

“When will he be discharged from the hospital?” Song Yi frowned. With Chi Yuan’s bear-like personality, would he want to divorce Song Jie?

“Depending on the patient’s recovery, it usually takes about half a month to recover.”

“When can he communicate with people? I have a document here for him to sign.”

“Well… It’ll take about a week.”

Song Yi tapped his chin lightly. As long as Chi Yuan lived. Other things could take their time.

Falling into his hands, he won’t believe he could not manage him.

When Song Yi was about to leave, the attending physician stopped him. He looked at him with a complicated expression, and pointed to his own brain. “Mr. Song, there is something wrong with the patient here. He keeps talking nonsense, always saying: ‘Sorry, sorry’, and that he would no longer dare.

“Is it serious?” Song Yi’s heart skipped a beat.

The attending physician shook his head. “It’s not serious, it’s just that the patient’s memory is affected and it will take him some time to recover.”

Song Yi let out a sigh of relief, thanked the attending physician, and called Song Jie to inform them of Chi Yuan’s situation. However, he didn’t say it was that serious and only said that Chi Yuan was slightly injured and needed to rest, so he could reassure Song Jie. He would take care of things.

Song Yi finally felt peace of mind when he saw Chi Yuan. Getting rid of this scum by having Song Jie divorce him was something Song Yi had been looking forward to for a long time already.

When he was a child, his family conditions weren’t very good, and the two children had spent a lot of money just to go to school. Song Yi and Song Jie basically had no pocket money. Their peers were all buying accessories and spending time online,

while the two siblings were working part-time to support the family.

Under such difficult circumstances, Song Jie often saved money to buy things for her older brother – sometimes sneakers, sometimes extracurricular books. Although they weren’t very expensive, Song Yi could never forget her actions. So, he would definitely help Song Jie wherever he could.

After all, the only person Song Jie could rely on in this world was him.

When Song Yi walked out of the hospital, he felt in his heart that something was wrong. Chi Yuan was a very shrewd person, one who bore a smart head. Otherwise, Song Jie would not have been easily deceived. Chi Yuan was really too smart to be hiding from loan sharks and getting beatings.

That was indeed strange. But he didn’t think much about it. Wasn’t it because he incurred the wrath of the heavens?

Song Yi contacted the lawyer, drafted the divorce contract, and sent it to Song Jie. A date reminder popped up on the phone, and he remembered that it was Shen Li’s birthday in a few days. Shen Li had sent an invitation letter to a pub in the Capital for a hotel party.

On that day, Song Yi carefully dressed up and changed into a dark-patterned suit of smoky gray. This color suit was very attractive. If one’s body and appearance were not suitable at all, it would look old and greasy. If one was stockier, the appearance would also be weird. It was too difficult to match, and basically no one dared to wear it.

But Song Yi was a natural clothes rack. He was tall and slender, with a gentle temperament, and a handsome appearance. This attire made him look capable and calm, showing his masculine elegance.

He arrived at the entrance of the hotel, and when he got out of the car, he saw an extremely big banner poster, which unfolded in front of the hotel. In the picture, Shen Li was sitting on the beach with a bright smile. On it was a long banner that read, “Mr. Zhou wishes little cute Shen Li a Happy birthday”.

Song Yi stared at the word “cute” for a few seconds, and tutted in his heart. Shen Li had more suitors in recent years.

There were many people in the assembly hall, men and women were dressed picture-perfect, the piano sounded melodious, and the sweet smell of cold appetizers diffused in the air.

Song Yi swept around, but didn’t see Shen Li. However, everyone was looking at him, their eyes seemed to stick to him, and some people took out their mobile phones to take pictures.

Song Yi ignored it, took a small pink cake from the shelf, found a secluded corner, and starting to cushion his stomach with it.

Before he could eat, there was a commotion at the entrance of the hall. The guests who were originally in the hall rushed towards the door. Song Yi raised his head, glanced at the door, and immediately narrowed his eyes, cursing in his heart.

Gu Xingchuan was wearing a gray crew-neck T-shirt, simple jeans, and a trendy peaked cap. He held a pot of green plants in his left hand. He walked through the crowded crowd, as if they were welcoming him onto the aisle.

Song Yi admired Gu Xingchuan’s eye-catching ability. No matter where he went, he was as bright as a scorching sun. He was born to eat the rice bowls of idols.

Song Yi and Gu Xingchuan’s eyes collided in the air. He saw Gu Xingchuan frown, then strode towards him.

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Coming closer, Song Yi smelled the faint fragrance of flowers from the green plants. Gu Xingchuan casually put the flower pot on the table, and sat on the seat next to Song Yi. He squinted at Song Yi, and said sourly, “You dressed so handsome today, who do you wish to seduce?”

Song Yi touched the fresh leaves of the green plant. “You know the answer yet you still ask. Why, can it be I’m seducing you?”

Gu Xingchuan got angry when he heard this. The sneakers under the table gently kicked Song Yi’s suit trousers. He hmphed and sneered, “You don’t have to dress so pretty to seduce me. Just taking this off would do.”

Fuck you. Song Yi glared at him. “We are in a public place. Be more respectful when you speak.”

“If I listen to what you just said, that means I can say these things in private?” The corners of Gu Xingchuan’s mouth curved slightly.

Song Yi stepped on Gu Xingchuan’s shoes with the tip of his shoe and mashed it down. “Hiss!” Gu Xingchuan was in pain. He bent down slightly, his eyes were shining, and he stared straight at Song Yi.

Song Yi tapped his chin and warned, “If you do this again, I won’t be stepping on your feet.”

Gu Xingchuan murmured, thinking about that sinister picture. His mouth dried and his blood boiled.

After a while, he noticed a small gift box wrapped in brocade and velvet on the table. He took it over and lifted the lid. There lay a pen inside.

It bore a metal texture with fine workmanship and looked like pure gold, with a sparkling diamond at the end of the pen. It was both resplendent and luxurious.

Song Yi pressed down the lid of the box with one hand. This was a fountain pen he ordered on the internet to commemorate, which was very suitable for Shen Li. “Don’t mess around.”

Gu Xingchuan raised his chin slightly and snorted disdainfully. “Who cares.”

Song Yi curled his lips and calmly replied, “I don’t need you to care. It’s not for you anyways.”

“Even if you give it to me, I won’t want it either.” Disgusted, Gu Xingchuan didn’t even take another look at it. He crossed his arms and looked away. A few seconds later, Song Yi was kicked under the table. He asked awkwardly, “Your birthday is still a week away. What do you want?”

Song Yi and Shen Li’s birthdays were very close, but few people knew about that when they were in school. Gu Xingchuan only knew about it when he accidentally saw the student registration forms.

Song Yi glanced at him in surprise, thought for a while, and said seriously, “I don’t want you to send me gifts. Just don’t provoke me again.”

Gu Xingchuan twitched his lips. “No way. You’re going to be disappointed. This won’t be given.”

So why the hell did you ask? Song Yi didn’t want to talk to him, he wanted to stand up and leave. The lights in the room dimmed in an uproar. Only a beam of light shot down from the dome in the middle, cutting the stage and the hall into two worlds.

Shen Li sat leisurely on the high stool, holding the microphone in one hand, with a snow-like face and thin shoulders. “Thank you for coming to celebrate my birthday with me.”

The stage began to cheer, unrestrained voices one after another. Shen Li smiled and shook his head. “I didn’t prepare the script, I don’t know what else to say to you. So will sing a song for everyone ba.”

“This is a song written by a friend who’s present today for me. This ‘Summer Wind’, I hope will let everyone have a good time today.”

Gu Xingchuan’s body was tightly tensed up. The color on his face was terrible, as if he wanted to eat people.

Song Yi felt uneasy. If Shen Li sang this song in the hall, wouldn’t it be appropriate?

The prelude of the acoustic guitar sounded soothingly, the accordion slowly entered, and the surroundings gradually became quiet, only Shen Li refined’s voice sounded.

“The summer wind blows through the branches and buds and leads the vines,

As clear as the blue sky

You can touch the clouds without wings

Summer dreams, fly over the coast and give me tenderness,

Fate is like a revolving lantern

You make me see yearning for the rest of my life,”

Shen Li sang well and was full of emotions. He had a good grasp for this green inexperienced love song ending off with thunderous applause and loud shouts.

Gu Xingchuan tugged at Song Yi’s clothes under the table. He suppressed his anger, and said softly, “Don’t listen anymore. Let’s go home.”

He now especially regretted writing this song for the yester-years of Shen Li’s back view.

At the time of graduation, he made Song Yi so angry that he cut off contact and flew abroad alone. At that time, he just became an adult. The silhouette of Shen Li appeared in his dream. He thought he liked Shen Li, so he wrote this song.

People’s memories often glorify their first love. The more time passes, the more mellow and fragrant it would be like old wine. But upon meeting and peeling off the filter to open this jar of wine, one realized that this was not fine wine at all, but a jar of pickled vegetables.

Over time, he finally figured out this feeling.

Though Shen Li’s silhouette was really beautiful and he would always remember it, he doesn’t love this person. His heartbeat at that time was just only a heartbeat.

Song Yi glanced at him. “If you want to go, you go first. I’ll go home after I finish delivering the gift.”

Gu Xingchuan was angry. “I’ll go with you.”

Lest he get too close and intimate again with Shen Li again. Otherwise, it will be endless.

He didn’t know what the people off stage said but there was a slight commotion. Shen Li smiled embarrassedly, and stepped off the high stool. “I don’t know if he is willing to speak. You wait for me to ask him.”

Shen Li’s eyes turned to the stage, and his eyes were fixed on Gu Xingchuan. The light swept over, and Song Yi couldn’t open his eyes.

Shen Li blinked a few times playfully, and said with a chuckle, “Xingchuan, I have your fans among my friends. They want to hear you sing, can you give me some face?”

The song of ‘Summer Wind’ was written for Shen Li. For the first time, all the people present knew that Shen Li’s charm had been known to everyone for a long time but didn’t expect that the big star could also become dizzy for him. Some people took this light and wanted to listen Gu Xingchuan singing live. With a live song, it was enough to brag to their circle of friends.

Gu Xingchuan squinted his eyes and raised his smooth chin. “Of course, you are the birthday star today. This face of yours, will definitely be given.”

After he finished speaking, he stood up, patted Song Yi’s shoulder lightly, and said in a low voice, “Let’s go home after I finish singing this song.”

Song Yi wondered, whose home he was referring to?’

Gu Xingchuan walked onto the stage slowly, picked up an acoustic guitar from the soundtrack area, adjusted the height of the microphone, and sat on the high stool. “Shen Li, this song is also for you.”

Everyone looked at Shen Li in unison, envious and surprised. Shen Li waved his hand, curved his mouth, and his eyes were like water.

Gu Xingchuan smiled lightly, his eyes swept across the stage. His lips opened, and slowly spit out a line of words, “The name of the song is called ‘You Are Not Worthy’.”

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